Message to all PatronsJust a quick one to all my supporters on Patreon;
Kindly stop your payments. I finally got an internet connection, but at present, its so slow and unstable that I cannot in good conscience expect to provide services up to my own standards or expectations. So, until further notice and developments, I am ceasing patreon content until I can provide a service I deem acceptable to my own standards. Which, to save on any confusion, are to provide live streaming sessions at convenient hours for all of you, where you can provide live feedback on my work. I feel this helps create the most dynamic and personal work for everyone and I truly enjoy delivering it.
If you wish for a refund for the February Patreon Page ( It remains in progress ) Please contact me via note, and I will issue you a refund via paypal. I could not issue a group refund via patreon, or paypal, or I would have done so.
Your patience in this matter has been greatly appreciated, and I do this with bitter disappointment, in mys
This at least has some silver lining, I dont have to worry about fucking mobile data anymore. While I am bitterly disapointed that I can no longer provide the Patreon Pages I really do love doing to the standard I am content with, It means that I can at least get into commissions and other work for people. I am still available on Skype and can provide updates...just a bit slower
Moving on to the next par, You may be aware of the crazy shit that happened between Lamia Moonwing and myself. Its only fair, and right, that I explain why I did what I did. I'll try to keep it short.
Lamia came to me some time ago, and while I immediately had some trouble understanding what the fuck she was saying, I had no issues with her, She was a bit eccentric, but not unpleasant. I worked for her happily, pressing myself into unfamiliar territory, which was welcomed as it helps me grow. It wasnt until after I'd finished my work that she showed what she really was. I made the mistake of not taking a close friends words as seriously as I should, A mistake I will never make again. But, warned though I was, I stuck with her. It wasnt long before she turned on me too. A clash of ideals, values...stupidity. Though her insults and utter disregard for evidence absolutley infuriated me, I tried to take a new approach, and after cooling off, I spoke to her again, calmly saying that I believe her English to be a barrier in our communication, and it would be good to work on it. It was not taken well, I believe her words where along the lines of "My English is perfect" So, push comes to shove again, and she fires up again with the common insults, calling me all sorts of bullshit, But rather than break into a blubbering tearie mess like I assume she hoped I would, words, especially in broken English, tend to bounce off.
After it became apparent that this was a lost cause, I told her to fuck off, never contact me again. English isnt her strong suit. She'd occasionally send me notes, drop into streams under a false name, then try to start shit, usually right after she'd identify herself by her unmistakably terrible English. So yes, For a period of time, I fucking hated her. Its a simple fact, I hated her and I just wanted her to fuck the hell off and get off my planet. I hear Venus is nice, perhaps she could move there?
Some time passed and, like I tend to do, I reflected. I admit, some of my behavior was a little excessive, but you know what its like when you cant stand the sight of somebody, being polite isnt on your agenda. I let go of the hate, It was a waste of my time and effort. I started to see her as, if I may steal the beautiful euphemism, somewhere between a cockroach and that white stuff that accumulates at the side of your mouth when youre really thirsty.
Time passed, and I thought that shed finally just fucked off. Then something happened, she sent me another note, one that I shared. It was in reply to some modern feminist garbage that I vehemently oppose.
On that journal, My friend posted a comment, Lamia then posted to her profile and damn, it got under my skin.
I remembered something that I'd sketched months ago, it was after a conversation I'd had with Lamia about her feminist bullshit, and a few days, I had a conversation with Tink. I share this with you to give you context, as Tinks responsible for reminding, and showing me, that feminism is still relevant. As someone who has labeled herself a feminist for almost her entire life and one who values equality and rights of people, and that good, rational people still exist and call themselves a feminist. Though I will never identify as a feminist, I have too many isues with the word, I certainly support equality, and I now realize that modern feminism is ripping a part of men and womens identity away from them with their toxic derivative of the term. With my eyes widened, I sketched a picture of her ontop of a defeated...Lamia? Fuck, I dont even know the OCs name, thats how little a shit I give. It was to me, nothing more than an expressive vent. I sent the sketch to Lamia, said I did it as a vent, she raged a bit, and I let it go, never to be touched. But, when she went to Tinks profile, I dug it up and showed it to her, explaining that I did it for the reasons stated above. We decided that it should be finished, so I did.
And then I posted it. I wasnt going to, but I thought, no, Fuck it, this woman doesnt deserve the respect or courtesy offered to the rest of the world, and I like this picture, and Im sure other people will too. And thats where shit gets really crazy. You all probably got a note from her, I dont need to say much more than that, But she went fucking ballistic, note after note after note, threatening everything from DA action to Legal Action and finally Flying to Australia herself to get me ( ROFL)
She has, through facebook, contacted my Cousin, 2 Brothers, Mother and Aunt.
I can only share the message from my cousin, as I believe, my family being smarter than your average bear, deleted the note immediately and blocked her.
"Lamia Aabdi Hi..i saw your are friend whit Ross Humphreys..maybe a menber of his family. I write to you because i know a big problem whit him. I am from an other contry, and he hate me. On his fetish account, he draw a picture of me, in blood after take a beating, in humiliating pose. He know i get beat and agress when i was child, and that cause me a lot of physical and mental problem, and he use this as weapon against me. I contact him, explain him how bad that hurt me, and how bad i feel to see that picture public, see by hundreds of people, but his reply was he enjoy to hurt me, and he will do hit again. I think to contact the autority in his town, but i prefer to avoid that, and ask to his family of him to dellete that horrible picture that make me feel sick. Thanks for your time, and sorry for my english."
So thats where I'm at now. Some of you will say that Im being childish for not just blocking her, usually, I would agree. But to me, after my mistake of not trusting the word of a friend when I should have, made an oath to myself, that I would show all of you what she really is. A two faced maggot who leeches from the community. If this was just a problem between myself and her, I would have let it go, but because I know that shes pissed a number of you off, I will not let it go unnoticed. This community, and the people I consider my friends, mean something to me, And if theres 1 thing that you must know about an Australian, we will defend a friend with fury and we are as stubborn as Uluru. Its not a good combination.
Apologies for the text wall.
The next part? Questions?
Well boy howdy, a few people have asked If I'm ever going to do another video Q&A and to that I say, Fuck yeah, pitch your questions below, or via note and I'll do one soon.
So this is where I leave it, with a picture of myself channeling my inner Russel Crowe. All I need is a tugboat and a telephone to hurl at people.
Peace the fuck out.
At the request of My wife, I've been asked to mention that there is a note that she is happy to release that Lamia had sent her. It gets a bit full on, but its tolderable. Contact either of us for a copy.